listen: it never entered my mind

"It Never Entered My Mind" - Miles Davis

 

As I walked down to the little farmers' market located in my hometown, I did a lot of thinking about me and Mr. Wit. 1,365.6 miles away from each other and I still can't get him out of my mind. I think back to the long nights of staying up talking and listening to everything from Miles Davis to Muse, discovering parts of each other we never knew existed, and looking at baby pictures. I think about the sweet words whispered to each other, the shared smiles, silly jokes, and the people we got to be with each other. I think about the way he looks at me like he wants to devour me -- pupils wide and bottom lip bitten.

I think about the whirlwind that he's swept me up into. There are still so many factors that make Mr. Wit such a risk: the friend with benefit, the distance, his commitment issues, my attachment issues, the age thing, the professional relationship -- well, the list could go on and on. But in my eyes, it's all worth it. It's worth the risk. How the hell did this happen? The relationship started out strictly professional and yet, here we are. How the hell did we end up here?

I've asked Mr. Wit this a couple of times and we usually just look at each other and laugh, shaking our heads in a shared disbelief.

Something that Mr. Wit and I share is a passion for music which is what is partially inspiring me to write another "listen" post. Yes, it's summer and I finally have time to tend to the blog. Believe me. There is nothing sexier listening to Mr. Wit talk about music. Listening to the raw passion of him discuss songs -- especially when going into detail -- is so much of an aphrodisiac. Besides, passion is a turn-on and what initially attracted me to him in the first place!

One night we were spending time together and as we continued our passionate lip lock, this song came on. It started out softly with piano before the trumpet came in, perfectly accompanying its counter part. It was a gorgeous jazz song that took my breath away -- not to mention the fact that with the music and the intimacy, I felt like I was in an episode of Sex and the City. (And as all of you know, Carrie Bradshaw is my girl). It was just too perfect. It was a rainy night with good company, good music, and damn good kissing. All we needed was New York City.

Miles Davis does an incredible job with the song. It's beautiful, soft, sexy in an almost melancholy way. It's the kind of song you play on a rainy day when one is in the mood to romanticize the rain. Oh, wait. Is that just me? Sorry about that... The trumpet riffs and the way the song dwindles off with the piano and the percussion in the end? Ughhh (in the best way possible)!

Although the lyrics (not in the Miles Davis version) don't remind me of Mr. Wit, the song always will for these moments. The title itself, "It Never Entered My Mind" are rather appropriate as well. "How the hell did we end up here?" I'm not so sure. But what am I sure about is that at the beginning, I never thought that this was where it would go. He was the last person I thought it'd be with... but yet... here we are.

It never entered my mind, Mr. Wit.

Just thought you should know that.

Yours always,

J