love: a morning well spent

Photo Credit: The Single Girl in Love

 

(March 24)

The reason I'm putting dates up at the top is because these were supposed to be published on said date but due to my insanely busy schedule, they were unfinished blog posts begging to be written. But I'm getting to them now and that is what's important! Onto the finer things...

 

I know it's a little bit grey and muggy out, but it really was a morning well spent. Can you believe that that's on my college's campus? It's gorgeous, I know. Perhaps I'll have to take another picture of it on a sunny day. Anyways, there's a river across from my school with this little dock that I like to go to, specifically on Sunday mornings.

Why Sunday mornings, you ask?

In a college town like mine, by Sunday morning, no one's up before noon and everyone's still hungover from the night before, leaving me to sit alone by the water and just listen. And this morning I had a lot on my mind...

Classes have started again and we're back from Spring Break. I honestly wondered how Mr. Wit and I would exist outside of spring break and it's been interesting. He and I are both very busy people and we both knew school would kick us in the assess the minute we got back. Would we have time? When would we see each other? Would we still hang out. It sounds pretty petty and small but at the moment, he and I have barely scratched the surface of spending time together.

Allow me to rewind a little bit, seeing as I never really gave much detail into Mr. Wit coming back into the picture. It's a little creepy because I was watching an episode of Sex and the City and there was a scene between Carrie and Big that made me stop and realize: "Oh my God. This is what we sound like." He's witty, indicated by his pseudonym and he and I go back and forth with our words.

Oh yes. And it's really hot...

On Saturday, the day after Mr. Wit's brithday, he and I met up for some coffee. This was decided that morning around 3:30-4 as we texted through his birthday get together. If that doesn't show like, I don't know what does. Four hours? Through his birthday party? I can't be making this all up in my head, right?

We met up and had a nice time just talking and drinking our coffee. We laugh a lot together and I love that he makes me laugh like that. He pushes my buttons in the best way possible and I think I push him too. Not in a rude way, but we tease each other and challenge each other a little bit, intellectually. Afterwards, he drove me to my rehearsal and we went our separate ways.

That night, though, he texted me to ask how rehearsal was and we talked for a little while longer until I fell asleep. We've been texting all day long. We're not talking anymore because his dad's in town which I completely understand but we've kept in constant contact which has been a little bit a surprise to me. The following was a little odd though. We'd text all day long and then go a day without.

Something that Mr. Wit and I have a problem with is that we dance around certain things. We both are good with words that I think we both know how to prolong cutting to the chase. For what reason? For me, I'm just a chicken. What happened was that it got brought up that the both of us love to cook and we danced around the idea of us cooking together sometime until we were saying goodbye and he said to me: "When you're not busy, you'll have to come over and I'll have to make you breakfast tacos sometime." And I simply smiled at him and said: "And waffles. We can't forget the waffles."

So this week's on and off communication threw me off a little bit. We're still getting to know each other and cooking together doesn't seem like a "Just Friends" kind of thing to do. All weekend we were kind of out of touch which irked me a little. So that's what's been on my mind lately. And I know he's been spending with his friend that occassionally benefits which makes me nervous too. He keeps referring to her as his friend and I feel like if they were something more than he'd let me know.

Breakfast this weekend didn't work out so perhaps next weekend? Who knows? I'm curious as to see if we'll keep it up. I mean, texting all week long? It's a little exhausting!!! And by a little, I mean a lot -- especially coming from a girl who hates texting. Remember Mr. Too Available? Yeahhhh.... I hate texting but I don't hate texting Mr. Wit which is a big surprise... because I really do hate texting. It's stressful and annoying and communication can be misconstrued very easily.

I feel like I'm stuck in this grey area of "I don't know" because in reality, I really don't. Mr. Wit and I have been in constant contact and have hung out a total of one time. Yes, things are flirty, but what are we doing? I know what I want but I'm not sure what he wants and I'm not sure where this is going. Is it just friendly or more? It certainly feels like more but then again, I don't really know! I could be reading it all wrong!

All I do know is I really like spending time with him and I'm really enjoying getting to know him and the more I get to know him the more I like him.

With love,

-- J